So I had a bad day today.
One of those days where you cry the entire way home from work ... Even though your 4 year old is sitting in the back.
One of those days where you realize you are making a wrong turn and instead of just laughing it off - you cry even harder .... Even though your 4 year old is sitting in the back.
One of those days that when you hear someone's voice on the other end of the phone - you can't even talk because you are crying so hard... Even though your 4 year old is in the back.
And then ... from the 4 year old in the back:
"Mommy? Here! (passes me a Smartie)
What's wrong? If you are still sad about school, you just need to not think about it! You aren't there right now! That's what I do ... and then I forget about it forever. Get your mind off of it. Look!!!!! The sun is shining through the clouds! Isn't that pretty?"
My worst day just got better ... From a 4 year old in the back.
8.22.2012
7.21.2012
Orange Chicken Vacation & Arrows
I read this book by John Eldridge awhile back ... more like years back. It was called "The Sacred Romance". It changed my life.
One of the chapters addressed how things happen to you in your life and they are like an arrow that shoots into your soul - creating a wound.
And then it seems like once you have this, any hurts that happen to you will continue to deepen this original wound until you have a very deep, painful wound that a lot of your hurts can be traced back to.
I have one of those arrows wounds.
And boy oh boy, just when I thought that this wound had been dealt with and healed and moved on from ... I realize I was wrong.
It is back with a vengeance - strangely brought on by a vacation in paradise and a post vacation meal of Orange Chicken.
But I know that this time around this is just a wound.
I won't be downtrodden.
I will choose to RISE!
"Rise"
[Chorus]
Yes I will rise
Out of these ashes rise
From this trouble I have found
And this rubble on the ground
I will rise
Cause He Who is in me
Is greater than I will ever be
And I will rise
Sometimes my heart is on the ground
And hope is nowhere to be found
Love is a figment I once knew
And yet I hold on to what I know is true
[Chorus]
Yes I will rise
Out of these ashes rise
From this trouble I have found
And this rubble on the ground
I will rise
Cause He Who is in me
Is greater than I will ever be
And I will rise
Well I keep on coming to this place
That I don't know quite how to face
So I lay down my life in hopes to die
That somehow I might rise
[Chorus]
Yes I will rise
Out of these ashes rise
From this trouble I have found
And this rubble on the ground
I will rise
Cause He Who is in me
Is greater than I will ever be
And I will rise
Thank you Shawn McDonald for some lyrics to cling to.
Especially on vacation and in the midst of my Orange Chicken meal.
One of the chapters addressed how things happen to you in your life and they are like an arrow that shoots into your soul - creating a wound.
And then it seems like once you have this, any hurts that happen to you will continue to deepen this original wound until you have a very deep, painful wound that a lot of your hurts can be traced back to.
I have one of those arrows wounds.
And boy oh boy, just when I thought that this wound had been dealt with and healed and moved on from ... I realize I was wrong.
It is back with a vengeance - strangely brought on by a vacation in paradise and a post vacation meal of Orange Chicken.
But I know that this time around this is just a wound.
I won't be downtrodden.
I will choose to RISE!
"Rise"
[Chorus]
Yes I will rise
Out of these ashes rise
From this trouble I have found
And this rubble on the ground
I will rise
Cause He Who is in me
Is greater than I will ever be
And I will rise
Sometimes my heart is on the ground
And hope is nowhere to be found
Love is a figment I once knew
And yet I hold on to what I know is true
[Chorus]
Yes I will rise
Out of these ashes rise
From this trouble I have found
And this rubble on the ground
I will rise
Cause He Who is in me
Is greater than I will ever be
And I will rise
Well I keep on coming to this place
That I don't know quite how to face
So I lay down my life in hopes to die
That somehow I might rise
[Chorus]
Yes I will rise
Out of these ashes rise
From this trouble I have found
And this rubble on the ground
I will rise
Cause He Who is in me
Is greater than I will ever be
And I will rise
Thank you Shawn McDonald for some lyrics to cling to.
Especially on vacation and in the midst of my Orange Chicken meal.
6.06.2012
Quotes of the Week
We were at a jewelry store yesterday getting our watches fixed.
While I was waiting for the employee to come and help me, M and I were admiring the different things in the display cases.
M was staring into this case of beautifully huge diamond rings. He turned to me and said:
"Momma? I'm gonna get this for my woman someday when I get married."
A few days ago, Brad was painting some chairs for our backyard.
They were originally black, but were being painted a pretty metallic silver color.
M looked at B and said,
"Daddy!! I love that paint!
Those are the prettiest things I have ever seen.
They are so beautiful, it makes me want to cry."
Hilarious
and
Sweet
While I was waiting for the employee to come and help me, M and I were admiring the different things in the display cases.
M was staring into this case of beautifully huge diamond rings. He turned to me and said:
"Momma? I'm gonna get this for my woman someday when I get married."
A few days ago, Brad was painting some chairs for our backyard.
They were originally black, but were being painted a pretty metallic silver color.
M looked at B and said,
"Daddy!! I love that paint!
Those are the prettiest things I have ever seen.
They are so beautiful, it makes me want to cry."
Hilarious
and
Sweet
6.04.2012
Are you KIDDING ME?!??
Just a few moments ago, I was sitting in my chair reading a book.
I heard MTM's booby-trapped door open pretty quietly.
I had literally gone to check on him 10 minutes before and he was out cold.
So I was wondering what he could possibly want.
He usually comes to the top of the stairs and tells us if he needs something.
But this time, he didn't come.
So I put my book down and went up the stairs to see what he needed.
I heard him rummaging around in his playroom.
(Which was really weird because he NEVER goes in there at night).
I looked into the playroom to see what he was doing and saw:
a 4 year old boy
pants around the ankles
standing over his matchbox cars
laughing
and
peeing
full-force.
I said, "M!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!???"
and he just kept laughing and peeing.
I realized that he was sleep-walking so I called for backups.
Ironically, B was an avid sleep-walking pee-er and felt some sympathy for the little guy.
Sometime in the cleanup, M woke up and said, "I thought I was in the bathroom!"
Like Father.
Like Son.
Cute when you're 4.
Not so cute when you're 16.
I heard MTM's booby-trapped door open pretty quietly.
I had literally gone to check on him 10 minutes before and he was out cold.
So I was wondering what he could possibly want.
He usually comes to the top of the stairs and tells us if he needs something.
But this time, he didn't come.
So I put my book down and went up the stairs to see what he needed.
I heard him rummaging around in his playroom.
(Which was really weird because he NEVER goes in there at night).
I looked into the playroom to see what he was doing and saw:
a 4 year old boy
pants around the ankles
standing over his matchbox cars
laughing
and
peeing
full-force.
I said, "M!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!???"
and he just kept laughing and peeing.
I realized that he was sleep-walking so I called for backups.
Ironically, B was an avid sleep-walking pee-er and felt some sympathy for the little guy.
Sometime in the cleanup, M woke up and said, "I thought I was in the bathroom!"
Like Father.
Like Son.
Cute when you're 4.
Not so cute when you're 16.
6.03.2012
Wishes for a Screen Door Slammin'
I am standing at a screen door.
I can see outside.
It's spring time.
The flowers are blooming.
The sun is shining.
The birds are singing.
It is perfection.
It is the promise God has given me.
It is going to be fulfilled.
There is just one issue.
He has told me to stay inside.
He doesn't want me to open the door.
Yet.
He is allowing me to see what is outside,
but it is not time to go out and play.
Yet.
It is so reassuringly frustrating.
I know that there is immeasurable joy on the other side of this screen door.
I can almost see it.
I can almost smell it.
I can hear the beginning whispers.
But I can't touch it.
I can't experience it.
I can't have it.
Yet.
Here I am waiting for the moment.
That I can open the screen door.
That I can go outside.
That I can smell the flowers.
That I can feel the warm sun.
That I will experience my promise being fulfilled.
That I will hear the screen door slammin' behind me.
"See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; ...
Lift up your eyes and look around; all your sons gather and come to you.
As surely as I live," declares the LORD, "you will wear them all as ornaments;
you will put them on, like a bride.
"Though you were ruined and made desolate and your land laid waste,
now you will be too small for your people ...
Then you will say in your heart, 'Who bore me these?
I was bereaved and barren;
I was exiled and rejected.
Who brought these up?
I was left all alone, but these--where have they come from?' "
This is what the Sovereign LORD says: ...
they will bring your sons in their arms
and carry your daughters on their shoulders.
... Then you will know that I am the LORD;
those who hope in me will not be disappointed."
Isaiah 49:16-23
I can see outside.
It's spring time.
The flowers are blooming.
The sun is shining.
The birds are singing.
It is perfection.
It is the promise God has given me.
It is going to be fulfilled.
There is just one issue.
He has told me to stay inside.
He doesn't want me to open the door.
Yet.
He is allowing me to see what is outside,
but it is not time to go out and play.
Yet.
It is so reassuringly frustrating.
I know that there is immeasurable joy on the other side of this screen door.
I can almost see it.
I can almost smell it.
I can hear the beginning whispers.
But I can't touch it.
I can't experience it.
I can't have it.
Yet.
Here I am waiting for the moment.
That I can open the screen door.
That I can go outside.
That I can smell the flowers.
That I can feel the warm sun.
That I will experience my promise being fulfilled.
That I will hear the screen door slammin' behind me.
"See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; ...
Lift up your eyes and look around; all your sons gather and come to you.
As surely as I live," declares the LORD, "you will wear them all as ornaments;
you will put them on, like a bride.
"Though you were ruined and made desolate and your land laid waste,
now you will be too small for your people ...
Then you will say in your heart, 'Who bore me these?
I was bereaved and barren;
I was exiled and rejected.
Who brought these up?
I was left all alone, but these--where have they come from?' "
This is what the Sovereign LORD says: ...
they will bring your sons in their arms
and carry your daughters on their shoulders.
... Then you will know that I am the LORD;
those who hope in me will not be disappointed."
Isaiah 49:16-23
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