1.18.2011

Waiting in the Wings

Sitting in the waiting room. Of my life. Again. The difference this time, however, is that I have the past triumph of my miracle boy to spur me on to patience.

A little over a year ago, I started making my request known to the Lord that I was wanting to add to our family. Again. I asked, I prayed, I requested. This went on for about a month.

I was in a time of prayer and again requesting a new addition. Trying to figure out what the next step should be. I heard a still, small voice silence my inner-dialogue.

I was not to ask anymore.
I was not to question anymore.
My request had been heard.
He was on it.
In HIS time.
It would be perfect.
I did not need to worry anymore.

And from that moment on, I realized that He knew my heart's desire.


There is nothing more frustrating than to be questioned over and over and over for something by your child that you cannot make happen at that moment. It's usually only because it's TRULY not the right time for what they are asking or you do not have the physical things needed TO give it to them.
I truly feel like God was telling me -- It is not time. The pieces are not in place. And when He sees that it is time and the pieces are available to Him -- He will come through. He always does. I always try to come through for my son -- no matter the cost to me. How much more does He love me?


 7-11"Don't bargain with God. Be direct. Ask for what you need. This isn't a cat-and-mouse, hide-and-seek game we're in. If your child asks for bread, do you trick him with sawdust? If he asks for fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? As bad as you are, you wouldn't think of such a thing. You're at least decent to your own children. So don't you think the God who conceived you in love will be even better?  Matthew 7:11 (The Message)

The thing is I know God listened to me. I know that He wants me to trust Him. 

The reason I am so sure is because after that time of prayer, one of my friends came up to me and said, "I just want you to know that my mom and I were praying for you to be blessed with another child. Don't know if you are ready or not -- but I just felt like I was supposed to tell you that." To which I smiled, nodded some thanks and looked up at the heavens with an "I get it, I get it" grin. 

Just another day on my journey to meet my sweet, bundle of something ...